My Little Journal of Crap

That "occasion"

2005-12-08T22:57:29Z

Today has been weird. Yesterday was an ace day, everyone seemed in a better mood and I had loads of fun with everyone. I thought everything was getting better...until today. Els is having a shit time. And worse than my problems I know...her uncle died today. She must be going through hell. I'm just glad to be there for her when she needs someone to talk to. I feel so helpless though, I hate not being in control of situations. I hate the fact that her heart's broken and no one can make her feel better. I just want her to feel better. I promised her yesterday it couldn't get any worse, and it did. It's like I lied to her and let her down. I know that's not true, I just wish there was more I could do. But times like these make you think about how insignificant your own tiny problems are.
Then Mum speaks to Grandma on the phone and Uncle Stan had been in hospital for the last 12 days and no one bothered telling us. He had a massive heart attack, but he left hospital today I think. And yeh he's 77, people say things like that happen. It's not a reason to worry less. And mum goes," Well I think all the family wil be reuniting soon for that occasion".
I don't want it to happen.
I've never been to a funeral. I'm so scared about it. I don't know what Auntie Margaret will do without him either. Or Grandma.
It just feels like everything is going wrong for everyone at the moment. I thought everything was going ok for me until today.

Santa's letter

2005-12-05T17:33:04Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September I gave bunny_fuck a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). Last month els_beth and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Last Saturday I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). Last Sunday I bought porn for spasmaton (10 points). In May I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points).

Overall, I've been nice (273 points). For Christmas I deserve a toy train!

Sincerely,
chickydude

chickydude @ 2005-12-05T16:26:00

2005-12-05T16:44:34Z

Well...its been a weird weekend...
Friday night I went into the pub with Mum and Dan and Aaron were in as normal. Dan was annoying me though,so I went home at about half 9 with Mum. He promptly text me saying "How come your so cold with me!" So I said I wasn't, then he just started going on about shagging again so I stopped texting him. Then Saturday me and mum went shopping. I got a new dress for Christmas and stuff from River Island, new cd's, purse, top, jeans, general stuff, and presents. And I got served as over 18 twice so I was well chuffed lol.
Then we got back, and I went to work as it was the Next Christmas party, and me and Phie had to carry trays of little salmon things...can't remember the right word.I did get called gorgeous a few times which made it seem worthwhile lol. He he flirted with the boss's brother-in-law all night too as his wife is a complete bitch to me.
Then we finished and came back home to get changed, went back down the pub, and slowly got more and more drunk. I ended up doing the conga with my boss, with Dan's very fit cousin Jay in front of me so I was happy.
Then me and Beth were on our way to the toilet and ended up getting off with the same bloke twice each...his name was Will I think.
Then at the end of it Dan got so arsey with me, and I know we normally fight, but he took it way too far, just saying the harshest things and I could tell he meant it too. Then he left and I ran off crying (the drunkeness lol) and John, the boss's brother-in-law saw me and gave me the biggest hug and told me not to worry, then my boss Lorraine did, then Beth came in on helium and laughed which cheered me up instantly.
I went back into where everyone was and we all went home eventually, but I text Aarom telling him to give Si (this guy I'd been flirting with) my number, and then they both took it seriously when I was mucking around, so now Si thinks I like him and I got into an argument with Aaron, cuz he was being all clingy even though I'm not even with him. He keeps going on about how much he likes me, but he hasn't done anything. So I did like him a bit to begin with but now I just don't at all cuz I thought he didn't like me. And I can just see how everything's gunna be awkward between me and Si, me and Aaron and me and Dan. But everyone thought Dan was in the wrong.
Everythings kinda fucked up at the moment...I seem to have the best times then something comes along and just ruins it. Beths having a fucked up time with Rob too. My mum just can't seem to stop having a go at me, so it's constant shouting in my house at the moment, and to be honest I'm starting to resent Paul for being here, because that means Sam's here too. Beth asked me the other day if I would be bothered if Paul and Mum split up, and I truly wouldnt care.
So there we go...some good things, but loads of bad things. I don't know if falling out with Dan is a good thing.
But I do like his brother alot :P....my god I have to stop

Hmmm

2005-12-01T22:03:46Z

Oh and apparently Beth didn't like the fact me and Els were talking about stuff that no one else knew about, mainly because I seemed so happy...so she gets in a mood rather than joining in when we try and involve her.

chickydude @ 2005-12-01T21:21:00

2005-12-01T21:58:59Z

Well, today has been total shit mixed with greatness. At the moment everyone seems to be in the biggest mood ever! Me and Beth went and saw Harry Potter last night and it was just like it was back to being us again. We had the best night ever...Then this morning she was fine, then I spoke to Els when we were getting ready for P.E, and she totally blanked me for half of the lesson. So I did it back, worse. I'm sick of being the one that has to run after her and apologise when I've done fuck all wrong. So finally she asked if everything was O.K, and then I kinda broke the tension by splitting my trousers! Then we ahd break, everything was fine, then English which I don't have with her, and me Ben and Dean were mucking around and I was in the best mood! Then Maths came and Dean said something to Beth, she totally took it the wrong way, moved tables and sat with a fucking moody face on her. I asked if she was ok, she just kept saying she was fine, and I said I was worried about her, to which she replied, "You don't need to worry about me". When your supposed best mate says stuff like this to you, its so crushing, like they don't wanna know you anymore. Then she got up, walked across the room with all her stuff, and I had to actually shout at her to stop to get her to tell me where she was going. And when she told em she was going home, she didn't even tell me why, just walked off.
So then the rest of the day, because Holly and Beth weren't there, it was like me and Els could actually talk to each other without worrying about how much people were bitching about us being our backs.
Whenever Holly and Beth are there, if me and Els talk to each other, suddenly the whole room is just full of this tension that everyone notices...and we don't know why. It's like it's a crime for us to talk to each other. Maybe it's because we talk about other people we know out of school, like people we go out in Hereford with, that no one else knows. It's so bloody annoying, just because no one else gets out of Bromyard, we're not allowed to talk about friends that we've made with each other.
Ah well, we should be having a night out tomorrow which will be fun. Getting to meet up with loads of people in Hereford that no one from school knows, so therefore can't turn against us!
Hmm, just talked to Beth and apparently she doesn't tell me stuff cuz she thinks I'll think she's a moody bitch and all she does is moan, and she couldn't explain it anyway. It's what I'm supposed to be here for though...she's supposed to be able to tell me anything, at any time. And she also thinks I'm not interested in what she has to say. Ok then.
But ah well, if she doesn't wanna speak to me then it's fine. I'll worry about her non-stop, but there's nothing I can do to make her talk to me. Like she came into work the other night with a bruise on her face and she said Rob did it by accident. Funny how it happened when they were having a huge row.
I just feel like I don't really know her anymore, and that when we're together it's awkward because I feel like I have to watch what I say because she might take offence to it.
Els has been great, I can really talk to her, and me and Dean have been getting on so well today its unbelieveable.
To make matters worse I've had Dan texting asking why I've been ignoring him. Which I haven't. I've just been waiting for him to text me, because I like the fact he's having to chase me. Plus, he wanted me to go down the pub because, in his words, "so I can shag ya again". Erm, no thanks.
But hey...me and Els are now buying each other an advent calendar because she got forgotten...and well..I'll have another one lol. And face packs and girliness ahoy on Sunday for us...should be a laugh then too, no one esle but us. Actually, dunno when Tom's going, but it should be fun all round.
So don't know when next update will be, maybe tomorrow at Els's! Oooh, I can't wait to have a good night without having to see people I know will obviously bitch about me the next day to every single person that I know. Bliss.

Pfft...Jes bloody Storer

2005-11-28T21:47:39Z

Well, today has been dragging on for what seems like forever.
can't remember when i last updated, but Friday I went to the pub, Saturday I worked, then worked again, then stayed after wards till about half 1. Dan took me and Aaron home and then rang me and told me to get out of bed to go and meet him, which I didn't. Then I worked Sunday again, and I was supposed to go to the cinema with Mum, Paul and Beth, but I rang Beth about half an hour before we were supposed to leave and that was when she decided to tell me she couldn't get a lift over. It actually really annoyed me!
But then Dan text me and we arranged to meet down the pub, but as mum decided she was gunna come, we said that we'd pretend we were off to play pool somewhere. So we did. Lol. And now I have free parking. And to be honest, it weren't even that great. I think I'm just one of those people that doesn't get impressed by sex to be honest. Maybe I'm just doing it with the wrong people. But anyway, in normal me stylee, I've now gone off him!
And Jes Storer has been telling everyone she thinks I'm only fat because then it makes my boobs bigger. Everyone on K! has told me to start eating again, and that I'm not fat etc. Nathan said my boobs are fine as they are lol...and Kelly has been the sweetest out of everyone. When she talked to me about it, I wanted to cry, because to be honest, I've met her once and before that I hadn't really spoken to her that much. But she talked to me for ages, and basically told me she'd been like that, and that you have to look at yourself and you're the only person who has to think you're beautiful for people to believe it too. She told me to ring her if I ever needed to because she doesn't like people being like that towards the ones she cares about. THAT'S the bit I nearly cried at lol. I mean, I don't think I've ever met anyone who has been so kind to me after meeting me once.
But anyway, I think I'm back to eating now, thanks to everyone! So yay!
BUT....I've given up smoking!! Go me. Dan and Aaron bet I couldn't, so I snapped most of my fags lol. Them thinking I coudn't do it just made me want to prove the bastards wrong. So there.

SNOW!!!

2005-11-25T16:48:40Z

He he, last night I told Stu it wasn't snowing here, so he said he would magic some over. He said he had, and told me to check out of the window. I was already planning my good put-down. But it was snowing!! Woke up this morning and there was a little bit, so it's been fucking freezing at school today and some little bastard put ice down my back. But it's been a fun day - in Drama I get to help direct our Nativity play because I won't be able to be in it, because its on the 19th, which is, of course, my birthday!
It was quiet again because people are still in London, so we had calm lessons of doing bollocks all really!
Should be going down the pub tonight because there's live music on again, I really do need to do some science coursework before hand though. Of course that won't happen, but hey. It seems I've lost my results as well, which really isn't good!
And then on Sunday, should be going to see Harry Potter with Beth, while mum and Paul watch some crap with Will Young in it.
Anyway...I'm off to talk to Stu some more and read my girly magazine. All I need to complete that is chocolate. And you never know what might be hidden in our cupboards. There's hope for me yet!!

Snow...or lack of it

2005-11-24T22:23:07Z

Hmmm, its been hailing. And Beth said there's snow in Bromyard covering the roof tops. So hopefully, fingers crossed it will be here soon.
I really do love snow. Even though it seems like winter is really a couples season. You should have someone to go walking in the snow with, or to stay inside and hold when it gets really cold. Someone who breathes warmth into you, however cold you are, and even if it's dark, makes you light up. That's what I want. Someone who can make me glow and radiate with happiness. Someone who you can have a snowball fight with, and they can be the one person who doesn't piss you off if they put snow down your top, just because its them and the coldness doesn't matter because you know they'll warm you straight back up again with something as simple as a smile. Someone you can go Christmas shopping with, and look at the lights as it gets darker and hold close to you, or even just hold their hand as you walk along. Someone that when you're with...you want everyone else to know that you're the one lucky enough to have them to yourself.
And someone that won't mind if you look a mess because you've been out in the rain, or because you've got rosey cheeks and a red nose from the cold, because you know they'll kiss the warmth back into your nose and stroke your cheeks and run their hands through your hair. They'll rub your feet if you've got cold toes and breathe heat into your hands when they've gone numb. I want someone who knows that I need them to hug me to help me fall asleep, and someone who'll stay awake until they know I'm fast asleep, just in case I need anything.
Someone who's just there if you need them, for anything. Anything from a complicated phone call, or help with work, to walking to the shop when you're cold and ill to get you soup, or just a simple hug.
Someone who will do anything, say anything, to make you feel the best you can. And mean it too.

Tooooday

2005-11-24T20:05:00Z

Since yesterday I'm in a better mood. But was so bored I decided to read K! magazine in English. Weirdly enough, the band that me and Els went to see (The Fallout Theory) are releasing an album and it was on the Rated page. Most people had gone off on a London trip today, so there wasn't many of our year about. I got in a bit of a mood in English, when, just because I was quiet, people kept asking if I was ok. Which, when I'm in a slight mood annoys me even more lol. Then we went into Maths and me, Beth and Beej had a fuckin hilarious time. Beej was trying to teach Beth how to write dirty, while I was just laughing at her attempts. Then at lunch Beth decided we'd start on her Art project. Basically, she's doing it on corsets, and wanted to use me as a model. So she wrapped me in toilet roll, then about 4 layers of masking tape, cut me out of it then she's going to plaster over it and do her design on it. My boobs were wonky on it though lol. Oh and on K!, Nic's decided that she really doesn't like me...probably has something to do with the fact I get on well with Kelly, who she hates. But hey, she's being bitchy, I'm only annoyed because I don't see the point in it. I've never done anything to personally offend her, so yeh, don't like me, but don't get bitchy for no reason!! Anyway, after a little bitching session to Els and Sean, I'm fine! I did just try to shuffle across the kitchen on my chair to turn the heater on...it didn't work though and I hit my chin on the sofa :( Oooooh, and last night Dan text me and rang asking if I wanted to go down the pub (which I did), but he was going on about how if he picked me up we could do stuff "on a friendly basis". And STILL I said no..so ha. I love the fact that I said no, and now he keeps asking, so I keep saying no. He he I do love power! But we did have a good time together down at the pub. Well, really, he just kicked my ass at darts again. I was gunna go down again tonight because Mum's working, but to be honest, I really don't know if I can be arsed! Might just stay on here and see who else comes online. I know Beth won't because she's at Certificate evening at school. Apparently her and Rob are gunna sneak off, so then they can shag in school. Sounds like fun lol. Oh and she's got Rob on the mission of finding me one of his fit mates. She told him I want a 'fun stoner, who I can meet up with easily and who has dark hair'. Sounds ace to me...and apparently his mate Callum's really nice so you never know!

Bugger it

2005-11-22T23:51:01Z

Again...choosing wrong person!! Ha ha ah well. Different person, who really, I should have known I should have gone for in the first place. <3 him he he. Totally gotta make sure I don't go for people who are gunna mess me around. Done it too many times before lol. So anyway...there we go...oh and thanks Els..you know what for. You really helped sort me out. Well you didn't help, you did it all lol. Love ya xx x xx

Poo

2005-11-22T22:34:10Z

Bored bored bored. As no one will have been able to read my last entry no one will know why I'm in such a bad mood. But I am. Blah. I hate being like this. All moany and depressive...it's not really like me. just shows how shit I feel

Hellooooorrrrr

2005-10-27T18:48:23Z

Har har I'm back from my spell of being utterly lazy and not bothering to write!!! Am on half term at the moment, and have been doing nothing except seeing Els, being on MSN and being on K!. Am going down to the London meet with Elfs on November 19th, which should be ace...and I am engaged to Brian lol.
Went out on Tuesday with Els and Amy to a gig, which was great...then last night I was at the pub with Dan and Aaron...and afterwards Dan sent me a message saying how if I was doing nothing today I could go round to his house and take advantage of him.Ha ha, and he's only just got back with his ex after alot of effort on his part...dirty bastard. But then today I went shopping with Mum, got dvds, a cd, a coat, couple of christmas presents and a new top.
Nothing else really going on, should really be doing lots of coursework that has been set over the holidays but again, I can't be assed.
Anyways, I'm cold so I'm going to eat.
Byebye xx

Fuckin family

2005-09-25T17:55:21Z

Fuckin hell, yesterday was Mum's birthday so all the family came over. Ans as usual had a go at me cuz I don't have a boyfriend and stuff like that. Worked today, am saving up cuz I'm hopefully going on Sunday to get my tattoo done if Trout can book me in.All I can be arsed to write really

Hmmm...I know its wrong

2005-09-20T20:03:12Z

Hmm, sat here on the net, talkin to Ade and Yarnold.The normal convo's..apparently I'm giving Ade a birthday kiss...it's weird how we used to hate each other but now I like him. I really really like him lol. It's fucking wrong...I know!!
Played netball today, lost 14-13, and now I'm fucking knackered. I think I nearly died.
Then me and Beth walked back to her's, and she showed me her diary cuz it's got a "rob page" and I kinda read the first page when she was outta the room and it was about when I thought she would rather go to the Folky with Rob, and wrote stuff like "Lorna's being funny with me, she should be happy for me". I dont have to be happy for her!! Then we went to the pub, and now she's working there! It was MY job, in my own place! No one else I knew worked there, and now I wish I'd never mentioned anything. The only good thing about it was that when Ric was talking to her I got to sit at the bar and talk to Dan!!
And now I'm sat on here, and I was talking to Ben and I asked him how things were going with this girl he liked, and he said that it didn't matter anymore, and that he liked someone else. And guess who it is.....Beth. And I know I'm being all weird, but Ben was always the person I flirted with, and he always liked ME and we always kinda had a little thing. Now we don't. She's always flirting with him, and whenever I try and talk to the both of them when they're together, the just blank me. Dean said he'd noticed it too. And I told Beth that he liked her, but I bet you she still flirts with him more than ever, leading him on. It's just doing my head in. She's really getting on my nerves at the moment, and I think she can tell cause I keep snapping at her for no reason really. I can't help it, she's really getting on my tits!!
And Dean and Charles did this Thriller dance today, and we all stayed behind yesterday after school to teach them the dance, and Beth was supposed to help me, and all she did was sit and talk to Ben. And she was supposed to help me with their make up today and I got arsy with her cuz all she did was sit and flirt with Ben...and I did actually really need her help. Well in the end it turned out I didn't cuz I ended up doing it all by myself.
She's really really put me in a bad mood. And then she's complaining to my because Rob's in a mood with her cuz she's starting work! "He won't even argue with me", so fucking what?!? I'd love to tell him what she's like with Ben at school, Rob already hates him!
I can just see myself being really arsy with her tomorrow..I'm just gunna be really quiet I think. I'll just make out somethings wrong, tell her its not, but it will be obvious there is. She won't care though, I bet you!!
I'm just moanin about it to Dean now...bless him he's bein real sweet to me at the moment.
FUCK BETH really, I couldn't care less!!

Hmmm...I feel deprived now

2005-09-18T20:02:44Z

Dammit still can't believe there's no sex fest for me :(

Tired....I'm sulking...

2005-09-18T18:04:27Z

I'm KNACKERED. Abso-fucking-lutely knackered. I went shopping on Saturday, got everyones presents, got myself my French knickers (yay!!) and my AMAZING leopard print tights!! Wearing them next Saturday to Mum's birthday dinner!! Then I got back and worked Saturday night with Alice and Rachel and Dan which was sO MUCH FUN!! Rachel's leaving soon though, and then Alice will only be working Sunday's so I won't get to work with them no more :( But I'll get to work with Dan and his sexy ass so that's cheered me up!! Ha me and him just completely rip each other apart now..I couldn't tell you how many times I've punched him for being cheeky to me! But it was fun working yesterday...working today however, is a different matter! I would usually stay in bed and watch Hollyoaks, instead I got up at 8:30, was in work at 11:30, and didn't finish until 4:20!! But Dan was in unexpectedly so that cheered me up a little bit lol. But I've come home and now I'm completely dead...AND I have to work again tomorrow night! I'm workin next Saturday day, then we're going in there for a meal for Mum's birthday on Saturday night so it should be really nice. Then I'll be working every Wednesday after that as well as Saturdays. But all this working hopefully means lotsa dosh! I've been putting all my tips in a tin that I can't get into..saving for Christmas present money. I thought it was a good plan!! So yeh...shopping was gd, bought Mum's present (foundation and some really pretty earrings) and Els's (which I'm not saying cuz she'll read this!! - but I do want one of her presents for myself!!)Then bought me French knickers, tights and eyeliner, crap like that!! And I saw THE best bag that's £20 but I HAVE to buy it! So a good weekend me thinks...spent loadsa money, hopefully earnt loadsa money!! Gunna play pool to keep me awake now...bye de bye...doobie love xxx x xxx

Hmmm.....

2005-09-16T18:01:56Z

Yeh, just re-read some of my entries...Dave the moocher is now going out with Tara...so no sex fest in october for me :(

Oh the bored and moodiness

2005-09-16T17:46:25Z

I'm so unbelievably bored. And I'm in a mood cuz I'm really really tired. But Beth's coming over soon so it's all good. Hopefully we can have a proper girly night in and watch peter key, have wine and bitch about people. All I've been doing all day is bitching about people. And it's been a hell of a lot of fun! Oh and I have a newly aquired stalker. This kid called Aaron from school, apparently he's in love with me!! Hahaha ok then. But he kept ringing me last night when I was online, so I told everyone about the calls and the 300 million texts and today everyone was just totally taking the piss out of him,so I think I may have got rid of him!! YAY!
Anyway....!! Tomorrow me and Beth are going into Hereford to do some shopping and eating of Mr Chips Chicken Curry!! It should be great! I wanna get some stuff : Mum's birthday prezzie, Els's, new underwear, eyeliner, shit like that really.
It's good cuz me and Beth ain't really done stuff together for ages..so it should be kewl!
We did nominations for Head Girl and Boy today...Beth was kinda annoyed cuz it seems like I'm the only person who nominated her and now she feels as if people don't really like her. Bless her, I love her to bits! But I kinda feel like she resents me a bit cuz quite a few people have said they've nominated me....but no one really knew Beth wanted to do it! And Charlie is just being a bitch...she didn't vote for me or Beth, who are like her best friends, she votes for someone else. Her reason : "Oh it doesn't matter, Beth and Lorna are voting for each other." In other words, I see them as competition so if I don't vote for them it means they might not get through!! She's so two faced, and she's totally in this for herself. She's got all bitchy over this, even though she was the one that said she didn't want us all to fall out over it.
And she's really really annoyed me and Beth about it;she's been head doing all day! I asked Ben to the prom last night (even though its not for like...a year!) only cuz Aaron asked me who I was going with and I didn't wana say no one just in case he asked. Then Dean asked Beth. And now Charlie keeps moaning cuz she wants to ask Charles but she don't think he'll say yes - which is probably true!!
But oh well...yeh so..shopping tomorrow, and then work!! I love work now, cuz I just get to flirt with Dan all night. He's so fucking fit!! And has a genuinly stunning ass!!! lol But he's a right laugh and I love it when I get to chat to him, cuz we just constantly take the piss out of each other. Last week he thought it would be hilarious to cover my arm in tomato sauce...so I beat him with the cling film!

Oh...btw...I'm not with Matty no more!! We (me, him, Els and Beth) went out last Friday and I got VERY drunk!! But after that, I kinda started to go off the idea of a bf...you know me, I get bored and annoyed so easily!! And in some ways he was just too nice for me. So now I'm young, free, single, and free to stare at Dan's ass as much as possible!!
So it's all good now...and we're still mates too, so that aint too bad...I wouldn't have wanted hassle between us. I think he thinks there might still be summit between us later down the line...but I'm not so sure. I think I might just stay away from lads for a while...well boyfriends at least. The only one that I didn't get bored or annoyed with was Damien, then he cheated on me, then I fuckin went and shagged him, and regret it...so look where that got me!!! Hahahaha not good
Anyway...I dunno what to do...I dunno what time Beth's comin over. Hmmmm....I may go and investigate...
8 oclock she be coming over. Oh yay....over an HOUR!! To get even more bored and in an even worse mood!! Ah well at least I'l be ready to do some serious bitching!!
I'll talk later..I'm so bored I might even do some coursework
Bybye

Where is he??

2005-09-07T20:31:56Z

Where oh where is my Matty?? he should be back...he finished work at about half 8..where is he?!? (hehehe thats now a little song in my head)

hmmm paranoia paranoia!

2005-09-07T19:54:04Z

God....why am I getting so paranoid?!? I've been out having a fag...and everytime I hear a noise I think its my mum come back....scary!!

Hmmmm...boring day

2005-09-07T18:01:10Z

Hmm, today, as you can probably tell from the title, was boring! The new Head Teacher is a tosser to be honest..and we had the new P.E teacher..she's O.K, looks like the Grinch though!! And Els discovered today that Holly actually has a penis...well..looks like it when she's wearing her P.E shorts lol. We practically pissed ourselves laughing all lesson because of it! Awww bless Els, she came out to meet me off the bus looking well worried and told me that Loggy (one of her dogs) got runover this morning...I was really worried then as well, I love Loggy!!
But it's all fine...he's fine..just got a few gashes and cuts but nothing's broken and he's gunna be fine...THANK GOD! I love all her dogs...specially Truff lol.
Anyway...now I'm just waiting for Chris to take me into Bromyard to get some fags...but he's gone all moody....CUNT! And I'm waiting for Matty to get back from work, which will be about 8:15...so hmmm...bored!!
Kinda excited about Friday night though...Folky!! Hopefully Flo will be able to come out...and Els said she might not..but SHE WILL!! And I think Beth's comin so it should be ace...specially as my sweetie's comin lol!!
Anyway...might go and nag Chris about getting fags again...might update later!! Bubye xx xx xx

Hehehehe CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVEN'T UPDATED!!

2005-09-06T20:58:21Z

sat here on the net...talking to Els...and Matty..my boyfriend!! lol YAY WE'RE GOING OUT!! he asked me on...the 4th,so, Sunday, early Sunday morning it was! And I'm SOO happy!! I can't stop being happy!! Even though we went back to school today (oh yay - Year 11), I was happy cuz I had a laugh with Els and texted Matty all day!
Kinda had a bit of a fight with Beth last night cuz she read my Myspace and it doesn't mention her once, but it says I have more fun with Els than any other mates lol...but I wanted it to be somewhere where I can write what I want and I don't have to feel like I HAVE to mention Beth!
It was kinda like Els introduced me to it, so it was kinda our thing lol, but I think I successfully blagged my way out of it..cuz she was cool today!
Yeh so... Folky this weekend, I think Me Matty, Flo, Els and maybe Beth are going out round the pubs in Bromyard...yay piss up lol !!
Oh, and last night Els introduced me to the Kerrang! message boards, and now I'm sucked in and its really addictive!! I was sat at school thinking..I wonder who's on K! lol
But yeh...first day was OK..made better by being able to talk to Matty all day...then he went to work from 5 till bout half 8...I was lost lol..didn't know what to do!!
But he's back now so yay...can't wait till Friday..it should be ace!!
Hmmm, shame we're back at school...we have to see Shitface every day..she was showing off her holiday photos and fair play, I have to admit, when she had her hair braided she looked....like a complete tit to be honest!!hahahahaha HATE THAT BITCH!
anyway, better go, more important to talk to Matty lol :)
Love me!! xxxxxXXXxxxxx

Last night!

2005-09-03T15:53:50Z

He he sat here talking to els bout last night... we had a fuckin great night! Me her and flo went out to the Herdsman to watch BOTB semi's, and Tastyhead, Stryder and Matty's band SuperFred 7 were all playing in it! tastyhead dedicated the Disney song "I wanna Be Like You" to me and els cause of when we saw them before at The Imperial and we went mad! We're now their biggest fans!
And we watched Matty's band, and they were ACE! Matty had told us they weren't that good, but they were! we were all stood by the stage shouting "We want Matty's babies" with his mates lol.
Then Stryder played, and me and Els nicked Laurence's drumsticks after they'd finished...Then we thought we'd lost Flo, but it turned out she was at the bar... with none other than Laurence!! And now she wants to marry him!
Then there was all of us, Els, Flo, Matty and his mates Liam..and the other one but I can't remember his name! And we were all dancing and just generally having a fucking AMAZING time!! Then it came to the end of it and I ended up goin with Matty, while Elspeth stood there shouting "Why aren't they going out?? MATTY, JUST ASK HER OUT!"
NOT SLY! lol
But it was all good, and then we went back to Elspeth's, stopping for Mr Chips chicken curry obviously, and me and Flo just couldn't stop laughing! We tried making toast but there wasn't any bread so we used buns, and then we were sat outside and Els's phone was making noises, and everytime it did, we would just collapse with giggles again!!
All in all, it was THE best night I've ever had out!! So CHEERS ALL INVOLVED!!! Love ya!! Specially Els n Flo xx xx xx xx xx xx xx x xx xx xx xx xx xx xx

omg!

2005-09-01T13:12:58Z

omg, i cant believe what I wrote in here about elspeth in march! god - we obviously didn't get on then!! probably something to do with holly no doubt. anyway - thats obviously wrong now, as I'm sat at her house where I've been living for ages lol....(its only cuz she makes THE best food lol). nah, its great, we're having a fuckin ace time, going out 2moro night with matty...mmmm lol. he he, its like....5 days till we go back to school, and we really should be doing some coursework but...suprise suprise,we're not!! going out and getting majorly drunk seems a much better idea! yeh..so Battle of the Bands again tomorrow night, can't wait! Me, Els and Flo are going and Matty's bands playing, so hopefully they'll be good! Should be fun fun fun though, fags beer and good music - what more could you want!!
Anyway, can't believe I ain't wrote in this since March!! Loads has happened since then- moved house, got a new step brother, been out with a cheating bastard called Damien Green! lol anyway, lets not talk about him!! Oh yeh...got accepted to a modelling agency, made hash cookies, done lotsa stuff!!
So anyway, I'm sat here at Elspeth's watching The Emperor's New Groove- how amazing!! lol. I might text Matty in a bit - he thinks I'm a very random person, specially since I sent him a message yesterday sayin "he he beetroot and chips!" lol. talking to Kris Lee on MSN - strange! I always thought he hated me, just called me stunnin....not exactly a compliment coming from him though! Oh yeh...and I saw Wozza on Sunday night at The Crown whihc was weird, haven't seen him since Nozstock...which by the way was amazing!! Went up with Kris, Holly, Younger, Millsy and Sarah...and Jade was there- the bitch! I was with Younger as well then which was nice, I liked it when I was with him..ah well, that didn't last too long!
Hmmmm, I need to find someone new...some one who's not from Bromyard....
Ooh, me and Chris went to see Greenday in June - it was fucking AMAZING!! we met these lads (the moochers)called dave, tom, ollie and ben, and they were just pushin through the crowd whenever they could shoutinjg MOOCH, and they asked me n chris if we wanted to join in the mooching, so we did! and i still talk to ollie and dave now, dave mostly. he was really sweet to me when we were there, kept making sure i was ok and stuff, and he kept picking me up! And he's invited me to go down to bournemouth with them lot in october, hmmm so - sex fest!! lol. thats if he's not with this girl he's in love with - tara. Shame though - he's hot! But hey, I still talk to him all the time, and he's a laugh...shame he lives in oxford though. Me and Els want lads out of Bromyard, but not THAT far out of Bromyard!! And Els has got her special friend Sean that lives up near Liverpool who she met up with when she went up to Leeds.
Hmmm, we're not actually havin much luck with the lads at the moment!! Ah well, going out tomorrow, so hopefully getting lucky!!
Yeh, and Flo's coming out and she seems really cool from when I've met her before, but she won't be on the pull seeing as she's got Ash, but hey...me and Els will be. Last time we went to The Herdsman we got drunk (Matty's fault - he paid for all our drinks bar one, bless him!) and did stupid dancing, even when the music stopped lol! Even Matty joined in... bless him! Then again, he was pretty drunk!Actually...we were too
My god this is a long entry...then again..it's just all shite really, me babbling on for around an hour about nothing really!
Anyway, gonna be leaving and watching The Emperor's New Groove PROPERLY now!! Probly write more later...Love ME X x X x X x X x X x X x X

got in

2005-03-02T15:51:44Z

just got in covered in snow!!yay its magical! txtin james and chris, sat here eatin smiley faces and drinkin a glass of hot water!
elspeth has bin givin me dirty looks all day after she found out i dont actually like her ystrdy cuz i told sparky and he was wiv her!ah well, no loss and me n gnome fink its funny!
james is ill bless him, after eatin a huge bag of mini eggs so serves him right! beth missed p.e cuz she went to b &q or "the dentist" as we call it! anyway g2g mums bk xx